The ramblings of a confused mind (or is it the heart? Hell, am confused!)

Today (could be yesterday, could be last month, could be last year but hoping it is not tomorrow or the day after) I am at that juncture in life, from where I see too many roads ahead of me. Some of these might meet at the other end of the spectrum. Some of these are well-defined and clear while the rest look like they lead beyond the clouds - I can't really see clearly what lies ahead. Frankly, I don't even know what I am hoping to find behind those mysterious clouds. I am not confused as to what to choose, even worse, I don't know what I want. I don't have a list of options. I don't know why at times I just go blank. I don't know why one moment I am the shoulder somebody leans on and unburdens himself and the other moment I am so lost that I don't realize somebody calling out to me.There is no reason for the vacuum. There is no reason for the disconnect. It feels like I don't belong to this universe anymore. The other minute I am back to normalcy - a word that I have never been able to define but pretend to comprehend. Back to the roads - yes, the ones that are mysteriously laid to hold the secret of what lies ahead for I do not care about the ones that are well-defined as I know that those are not the ones I want to go down. Thank God for that bit of clarity! The other roads leading to an alternative career, a change in relationship status, doing something for a cause close to the heart are the ones that are hazy right now. Is it time yet to start walking these roads? Do I need to buy more time to decide what I expect out of life before complicating it further? Is everything time bound in life? What are these invisible chains that hold me down? So many questions but no answers. I am still looking for answers! 

Do we have it in us?

To give up all comforts of our present to chase a dream,
A dream that will bring joy out of the scream.
Do we have it in us?

To do all we desire and think right,
Remove darkness with the light,
Without yielding to fright,
Do we have it in us?

To voice out anger, disagreement or just an opinion,
Giving up the warmth of the blanket of consensus,
Do we have it in us?

To differentiate right from wrong,
Even if we disagree with the throng,
Do we have it in us?

DO WE HAVE IT IN US?

Life changes!

Tracing little steps, I flew into School,
Learning new stuff felt so cool.
Nurturing my talent, watering my dream,
the pen I took, brought out my cream.
Then came college, then came competition,
Still I held on to my mission.
Out came this blog and my thoughts,
Never a dearth, never a drought.
Entering the world that knew just slogging,
I forgot how much I enjoy blogging.
Here I am finding myself back,
Oh my soul, get back on track!

The S - Connect!!

"Why God, Why me?" - How many times would we have asked this question!!

Have we ever counted those numerous blessings that have been showered on us? Do we value what has been given to us? Are we really thankful for what we have???

Well.... Those are a few questions that we need to ask ourselves.

When we do that little exercise of retrospection and introspect, the answers that we get are sure to help us connect with God better as we are actually connecting with our ownselves, first. We share a unique relationship with God. Just like every other relationship in the world, even this relationship has TRUST as its foundation. If you ever feel that God hasn't dealt you a fair deal, remember God knows what is best for you and also knows the best time for every little thing that has to happen in your life. Trust him.

This doesn't mean that if you don't trust him, he won't make the right things happen for you at the right time. God will still do the same but the pleasure that you derive will be on a scale lesser than what you would have experienced by trusting God to set things right.

You need to connect with your own self to connect with God. This is what I term the S - Connect. The spiritual connect which will help you appreciate life better!! Happy connecting!!

Friends!!! & Farewell!!!

Every passing day reminds me
Tomorrow isn't going to be the same.
Words can hardly express what I feel now
Seeds of friendship that we sow
Grow deep within and emotions flow.
That familiar pat on the back
The jokes that we crack
Are memories in my heart
That tear me now apart!
Oh why oh why should this happen!
With emotions my eyes dampen..
I begin a new journey in my life
With the virtual you always by my side.
Love you all
For what you were and are!

Thanks for being there!!

Whenever I think of you,
Flow in emotions anew.
I wonder what it is,
That drives me to you.
Whatever it is,
I am happy to have you!

Entrepreneur Reborn!!

Far from the maddening crowd,
Is a bystander looking around
Gazing through the ocean of heads,
Wiping off the beads of sweat,
Thinks he of the days of threats,
Of the battles of bread.
Wonders, if they would ever understand,
The pain of standing tall, in the world of quicksand!
He, an entrepreneur reborn!
Vows never to be a clam!